Anxiety

Yesterday i woke up anxious.

Now i would normally write to calm myself down, but there was no coming down from it. I don’t know what caused it but throughout the day i felt out of place, in my house and in my head. 

I thought i needed a good cry but then nothing came out of my eyes. Even as i write this i am still trying to figure out whats wrong. Maybe i will find out once the day is over. 

Maybe its a combination of things i have been worrying about

  • my faith i’m a Christian, these days i find myself questioning a lot of things
  • I still stay in my parents house and i feel like a failure, i feel like i should be doing something more but i don’t know what ”more” is
  • my sexuality

I think about these things often but not to the degree that i wake up with my heart beating out of my chest and short breaths. 

I know i should talk to someone but if you’ve read my earlier posts  you will know that i can’t really talk to anyone around me about this, that’s why i write. 

 

This sucks, big time.

I feel like my brain is saying this is payback for being too happy. I haven’t felt like this in a while, i thought everything was fine. Now its like going back to square one and i hate that route. 

I don’t know how to make it stop, that’s the part that irks me the most. I wish there was an off button somewhere. 

 

I hope it gets better tho. because honestly. 

 I’m tired

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