I am on my journey to healing and so far i am happy with the improvements i have made but i still need to do a lot more. Right now i am learning to pace myself and not expect results to happened overnight.
This past weekend i realized that its easy to say you have moved past a problem/stage/person until you meet it again. I have mentioned before i hated secondary school easily the worst part of my life some of the things that happened to me then still affect my grown ass now.
Now i met people from my school that i was hoping not to see for a while ( meaning until i’m rich and famous and i have a billion dollars in my account). Well lets say i was triggered and i almost had a panic attack at the mall. Although my friend i was with at that time told me i would be fine i didn’t really take in anything she was saying. As i got home i went straight to bed and slept. I woke up the next morning, my brain was ready to pick up from were i stopped the previous day. I looked into a mirror and said positive things to myself.
I cannot go back to that bubble, i destroyed it the day i said i wanted to move forward. I owe no one any explanation i am a working progress i will get to the stage were i am 100% okay one day. As soon as i said those words to myself in the mirror i felt better a whole lot better.
So here’s my little encouragement to you,
keep going you are doing your best, you have come so far you cannot give up now you’ve got this. One step at a time